Annnnnnd, that's a wrap!

So today officially ended my first semester at Cazenovia.

I really believe that almost all things happen for a reason and I can often see how drastically different my own life would be if things didn't happen the way they have. But damn it, I wish I hadn't had to waste the last few years before coming to Caz. I'm still loving this place. I feel like I've been thriving these last few months, artistically and personally. Yeah, if I'd gone 4 years ago, it'd be totally different...different students, different point in my life. One of the professors I've become close with wasn't even teaching at Caz then. But it's still frustrating to feel like I wasted those years.

Although I guess I didn't really. If I hadn't had a miserable year at Oswego, I wouldn't have gone back to OCC. I might not have become as heavy an activist, and I definitely wouldn't have met some people whose friendships I value very much. I wouldn't have been there when my baby mama went into labor, and thus I might have missed my goddaughter being born. Ahhh, see? Everything happens for a reason!


I'm going to enjoy my month off though. In no small part because I'll be spending a goodly chunk of it at school working with some of the same people, professors and fellow students, who made this semester so awesome. Use of studio facilities for working on projects with far fewer people than usual about and no deadlines? Yes, please!

And boy, do I have projects planned. A month probably isn't long enough to do everything I want to do. But I've got steady babysitting through break and nice arrangement with one of my professors, so I should be able to crank work out. It'll be doubly nice because I won't be away from home until late at night.

That was probably my only real issue this semester; trying to balance being a mama and being an artist and student. There's this documentary I keep hearing good things about called, "Who Does She Think She Is?" I really need to see it. It's about women balancing being artists and being mothers. I want to know how others do it. How do others parent and art at the same time??? This is a great mystery to me...I guess I'll figure it out eventually. I mean I kind of have to, right?